meLanchoLy-queen

.. no way!

i was never one to make an instant rave about a movie i just saw. it usually takes me longer than a year to get the right words before sharing what i think [about a movie] to the world [at least in blog form] and forgetting to write about it anyway. what i do though, is text brigade my friends as the credits roll and relay the most blockheaded comment that i could muster. like somebody who would grab on the mic of a reporter and scream, "deees ees da bes movie everrr!" as soon as they get past the cinema's door. last night was a spontaneous, denget-i-have-got-to-see-transformers-tonight-or-i'll-die moment, and i was all set to march into the movie house to catch it by myself. at the last minute, my baguio barkada decided she'd like to meet me so i asked her to come along. so there we were, two cosmo girls [she's so pretty too] getting in line to watch a [as previous reviews claimed it to be] testosterone-packed sci-fi movie. gahd, we were such geeks copying the transformers sound like we were trying to get phlegm out. you didn't have to know that. so there were the credits rolling, i took my phone out and told my friends, "i grew testosterone in two hours. i'm a boy now." what the jeepers is that about right? and as i write this, i'm seriously willing my cell phone to transform and become a robot just like i was cautious of getting into a vehicle lest they turn into an autobot/decepticon. i'll leave the rating and the analysis to real movie reviewers. oh. i just have to say this out loud. i was never a hardcore transformers fan. luckily i have a kuya and he made sure i got a good dose of boys' stuff and not be a prissy missy who lived to watch my little pony. so yeah, i had an idea that they do the [insert transformers sound] and what the deal between the autobots and the evil decepticons is. i was even convinced that our neighbor's red mustang turned into a robot at night; that's how gullible i was. beats the idea of flying ponies, i'd always say. just thought i'd share. :)can't wait for starscream to take over megatron's evil reign. nyahahahaha. :D

Of Symptoms and Dilemmas

I guess I’ve created a mischief here in my blog entries. Or am I just right? (see my previous entry entitled: the horror kind of people)

After not jotting (or rather typing) down the gruesome past happenings I’m trying to make this entry an ‘outlet’ for these feelings. But I’m now seriously typing down… *sigh.

I can tell it’s nightmare/s. but wait, who’s happy dealing with this kind of tantrums? I’m a nocturnal person but I’m not up till this wee hours! *4 a.m. argh!…
Gosh. Maybe I could  blame the tropical weather. Or maybe the roosters’ hourly alarm. Or maybe… my mind?? Gets?
The dilemma? My crazy mind recognizes what im trying to deny.
The symptom? If someone can’t get off your mind, maybe he/she is supposed to be there… awh.

Sino kayang stalker ang walang picture ng kanyang iniistalk?
Very well said.
It’s true for all stalkers-to-death out there! Joke!
Or is it only my tactic to know that someone better?
There was a time when i was dumbfoundedly looking (and staring!) at his picture, i felt creepy creatures cralwling up to my legs! -->hay sabi siguro ng mga langgam, ang SWEET
ko naman, tinitignan ko ung pictuire nia...
another dilemma here? black ants ang gumapang sa legs ko. di kaya dapat red ants? haha.

woi, anu ba yan. continue ko na lang next time ung iba pa. hai. sana kung lam lang niya. naku naman! nakangiti na xa sa kin oh.

*imagination.

horror kind of people ^_^

It’s daunting enough to have to bond with people other than the foursome that you’ve known forever, it’s downright terrifying that the new additions to my barkada are a ragtag  and pasaway group of boys! * Let's welcome the Boys our clasroom!)

Sure, it has its perks. There’s less reason to worry about how you’re going to go home late at night, how you’re dragging that heavy pile of books from your bag to your study table, and how you’re ever going to finish off that triple chocolate cake and banana split in just a couple of seconds to start studying again. Still, boys and girls are so different that you know things are bound to get tricky.

Or so we’ve been told.

So then, will boys and girls every truly get along? What if girls want to just go to the mall or gossip and boys insist on the food court or play? Could boys ever be okay with a little healthy competition from the girls, on days when the girls take on their passion for sports? And what if feelings other than friendship develop, would it all be downhill from there for the whole gang?

Jury’s out, I guess. They can just bring out the wholesome fun! Peace out to boys whom i zero in here in my blog! hehe! ^_^

*hysterical (too late..)

"it's not just about looking at each other's eyes, but looking at the same direction. its not that your views are wrong, they were just not right for me..." -- Solace 23 August, 2006--9:38:32 PM

im hysterically facing my computer agen, staring at the blinking cursor... i missed blogging so much.. (and i wnt 2 say sori 2 my POOR blog, im not updating so much, ur now as melancholic as i) T_T i hate dis dilemma dat began last wk, few days before my oh-so-bad bday.. and it really landed on my bday..awchie. and i cud hate HIM for turnin my spexal day into a awful one.. ..

i kinda hate my bday coz: a. im gettin old..whew..1 decade and 6 yrs of existnce hir on earth! b. lagi ako minamalas c. im tired hearing "palibre!" d. im alwys sick e. im always busy f. im always tired g. i hav 2 review for our periodc tests! (-_-)

..i knda love my bday coz:

a. i got another yr of existence

b. i learned a lot from my fruitful yrs

c. a lot of bonding is needed! so much 4 dat blah blah..chu chu..

nowadays, im livin behind d secrets.. gusto ko magalit sau. kaso ayoq mgalit sau. ndi q kya mgalit sau. at nding ndi q mggwang mggalit sau..--ironically speaking,i wanted 2 do dis soo bad! kaso bakit d ko parn tlga mgawa! its my spexal day den, he must GREET me, kht pampagaan lng ng loob pra d nko maasar sau!

i tried to move on but someting alwys juz went wrong. i cnt live a lie i cnt juz get by. but i cnt say i ddnt try, ITS NVER EASY LETTING GO. i tried to move on but someting alwys juz went wrong-- i wnt 2 delete evryting bout him. soo stupid. ok ok..delete delete delete..peo ayw prn! ang epal m naman, pdaan-daan k ulit sa icp ko! im mad, but i cnt help but stare. evn if im tryin 2 accept dat im WRONG, it feels TRUE dat im into you.. kahit mali.. its gud to hear dos words from you, i lyk to believe na 22o un, kaso ayoko paring mniwala ksi bka msaktan ako.. i cnt live a lie i cnt juz get by. -- tama bng ako p mkaalam ng ckreto nyu?? auz lng. sbgay natiis kta nun, bkt nga b d q p ulit mgawa ngaun. if ur falling into her, GO. and my comment? "im hapi for HER. not to you, . la ako ggwin. and so, db? pra anu p?" i want to tell u, JUST GO. and u knw wat?? im so hurt by d tym u asked me, "bkt ayw mko ipglaban? la ka bng ggwin? la kbng reakxon pag nging kami? pbbyaan mu nlng b? un nlng b?" okay, im sori if i just answered u, ", wala akong laban. period. la nkong ggwin. period. eh kng kau, EH DI GO." ..but deep inside im hysterically dying. super drowned in emotions. my tears were dried inside of me. not able to pour it out. but burst of sadness came out. T_T *is it ok 2 cry over here?*.. and kept questioning me WAT IF DEY BOTH FOL to EACH OTHER?? bogg! argh! eh di fall lng kau. ansakit ng tanong nyu ha! bkit sakn pa kau ngtnong?? arghh! i bog i tog!! tch. awch. T_T

*sob.

*sigh.

*thinks.

but i cnt say i ddnt try, ITS NVER EASY LETTING GO.-- basta GO. If ur hapi, GO. puro nlng GO. Pero anjan kpa rin. T_T cnbi ko n ngang GO eh! :'( .. Bkit kpa ba anjan, sbing GO eh! =( d more often i avoid u, d more often i wnt 2 feel the tears in my eyes. bkit kpa kc nanjan! if only u can hear d side if mine, kso u dnt wnt me to speak, if i try to, sabi mo DRAMA pko.. porket iyakin lang ako. i only know one thing, im pushing u away from me.. if it hurts u, it hurts me MORE.*sigh. *thinks. "masarap mgmhal ng dlawa. dlawa mhl m. ndi k mssaktan. kaso pg dmating ang oras pra mamili ng isa, kelangan m tlga mamili ng ISA LNG. kaso pg mnsan, kht mamili k ng isa, PAREHO PARN CLANG NWAWALA SAU. =("-- anonymous everyday i soaked myself wid risons to 4get u, evryday i lie. evryday i find strength 2 get me through and yet, EVERYDAY I DIE. its hard 2 gues a person's feelings 2wards u. ul nver knw if she's/he's into u coz she's/he's swit. but d harder part is, may iba xang mhal, pero sweet xa sau. im special to him, but now i know wats d BIG DIFFERENCE between a person hu's spexal and d person u luv.

*sighs

my frend aksd me, "mhl m pb?"..

*silence* "bkt d m ipglban?"...

*silence*

i said, "sabi ko sa knya, GO. msya na xa eh, ksma n nya. andun na xa. msaya ako cnunod nya ang cnb kong GO.:'( "

*sobs ang sighs.

rushin' my i.p.

cnu pla c Seishi???--this question is leavin' in our min ds since last friday...she must be leavin' us a brain-wrenching riddle.. =p

i hate cramming but im livin' thru it..rushing my invstigatory proj is sooooo..uhm..yearly, im making one..nakakasawa..

jeje.. i miss kuya daryLL, .. i hope he's ok..

gtg..i hve 2 do my proj.. :-/

a BIG BREAK from my seriousness

OMG.. >>that's ol i can say.

im not pretty xur bout my horrible "attitude trans4mation" 2day..before, i was so serious bout gettin' so serious in my studies, goin home so early afterskul cud so mean so much in my tym management in my studies..hehe. surprisingly, i see myself, my feet in the mall..hehe..dat is so mean!!! wer escaping stupid security gards now hu dont allow us 2 enter d mol at skul hrs..wow..dat cud not b me..

u see how friends spread der influences, ryt?! wuhoo.. but i gues, dis is wat i need.. A BIG BREAK from my seriousness..=p

but dat's ok, as long as im keepng my own principles in life (studying much harder dan ever is one of my prncples..ah wat kind of prncple?! haha.)

i rili nid dis..u see, im xperiencing bein hot headed at once for some slight reasons..so i hav no REGRETS for havin this short break..thnx 4 d skul hu skeduled these 2 days 4 uhm..so-so..diagnostic test..hey, hu did the testpapers?! i felt like a dumb oomph answering it! thank God, it was juz a diagnostic.. ;(

As Jonas told me yesterday, "wag ka ngang mxadong ng-iisip 2ngkol sa mga bagay na yan. tgnan mko, parelax-relax lng. ENJOY LIFE!!! kya nga ngttnong lng aku saun ng pdeng I.P. sa adv chem eh!"...and now i know wat he rili means... :)

why women cry..

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

--Memory Lane--

June 26, 2006

so Sad to Go. . .

Dad's gone to work overseas agen... how sad to see him go...--anyway nsanay nko, mgmula pgkabata d q xa mxado nkksama as much as i wanted 2.

hir i go agen, infront my desktop, seeing dis blinking cursor dat goes wid the blinking of my eyes.. *twinkle twinkle*

Jonas is txting me ryt now asking 4 our asynmemt in english *jonas, pasaway ka kc. ur not bringing ur payong kc! achoo k 2loy!*, he rants not doing it
for he doesnt lyk doing it..*jonas, ur so tamad tlga! peace!*

d saddest thing dis day was seeing Kuya daryLL 4 d last tym. his family wil fly to spain 2morow, 7pm.
as much as i wnted, i dnt lyk seeing some1 bidding farewell (even if he kips insisting us not 2 mention d word "gudbye" but instead say, "c yah soon")
he told us he'll b back after 2 yrs juz 4 a VACATION. aww, im alredi sent 2 college by dat tym but i RILI HOpe
2 c him! ah wait, he hugged me..aw. dats d feeling. it reminds me of some1..ah..better not to mention hus dat sme1..
i rili hate departure, parting, gudbye...or watsoever! i hope il dont eat my words wen my graduaxon tym comes!

weL, i hav 2 continue dis entry in d nxt day 4 im having a prblem bout my advance chem sbj.
i want chem 2 b my fave like engLish, but it seems wer not meant to be! nyaha! wattaterm! i hope mam dumadag can understand how is
it hard 4 me to do a Lewis dot structure to elements.

Mam Tita, im sori if im too "mahina" in ur sbject..i cnt stnd absorbing ol d elements in my brain coz later on, my brain spits dis things up
after a certain review. not ol of us in college wil get a course like BS chem but im sure we'l have a sbjct lyk dat.
anyway tnx 4 d basic things bout chem, it wil b a great help in my upcat test but im certain dat not ol items der wil b about chem.
im sori coz my major is bio (am i too bias in saying dis things?)..frankly speaking, not ol students wants 2 learn bout dis sbjct.
but im interested in dis sbjct but dis sbjct cant seem 2 stand by me. but i love ur sbject 4 certain things.
i love it bcoz it makes me realize wat r d cmponents of wat im eating coz  i luv eating! nyaha! but i hope il do wel in dis sbjct.
weL, i hpe il reject dis things after my grad! agree wid me, dear readers!=p

ah wel, i hav to type dis things in my brain..gotta review my Chem! u see? i love chemistry! nyaha. i therefore conclude, chemistry doesnt like me.
haha, kng mkpagsalita nman ako, prng luvers kmi ng chem.

ewan ko kng kelangan q mkonxenxa. i hv dis skulmate of mine, he's 1st yr. his name is julian and i h8 pipol like him (before). he audixoned to glee club wer i was a judge den. and dis is wat happend:

Me: ading, tip ko lng sau, kmanta k ng acapella d2 sa audixon.
Julian: Teka, cnu ka ba?!

..u see? sama noh. he doesnt knw dat he's talking 2 a FOURTH YR STUDENT? hahahuller! i got mad and 2 shrug things off, tnawanan q nlng. peo dip insyd, i wnt to ..ampf!@%$^#

he did a 2nd offense 2 me dis afternoon. im bsyd d lrc and im near 2 a puddle. im wid d boys making jamming sessions, wen i saw him AGEN. he was smyling..ung ngiting nkpang-aasar!
den dmaan xa sa amin. and he STEPPED SO MADLY at the puddle and nbsa shoes and socks ko dhl mlpait ako sa puddle. at may nkpancin pa:

Ferdz: hala, pao. nakita mu un?
Me: hai, bw*set tlga ung batang un! 2nd offense na to ha! halata bng cnadya nya?
Ferdz: ewan ko lng, kc anlakas nyang umapak sa semento eh! at cnu nmang tangang mglalakad sa 2big noh?

...eh di cnugod nmin xa ni ricardo.tsk. tsk. prinangka ko xa..aba, nagwalk out..di ko inakala, umiiyak na xa..nakonxenxa 2loy ako.
nu b yan. lmabas akong msama. un pinatahan ko nlng! hay! but dip insyd, i dnt his attitude parin!

haha. knuwento ko sa kapatid at kina kim..haha! 2mawa nlng cla..peo sbi nila, epektib nman daw kc aqng mgalit..tsk.tsk.may npaiyak ako.
AT FIRST NA KSALANAN KO UN 4 DIS SKUL YR!..hmp. nkktakot daw kc aq mgalit eh! *accdg 2 my frends..peo i hate having anger management..nyaha! d nga
aq mrunong mgalit! =p hmm?

wait gotta do my englsh hmework! if ur a tourist guide, wat wil b ur word weapons to sweep off the feet of the tourists 2 cnvince dem 2 visit urdaneta city?! haha.
watta tough quessie! wel, i luv dis city wid its polluted air and traffic jams inspite of bein ine of d probinxas!wel. i hv 2 d0 more work(s)!

- - - heLp me in my engLish Homework! - - -

june 27, 2008

go and fly and reach the sky

i sAw kuya daryLL dis morning.. his Last visit in his alma mater..2nyt 7 pm..tym 2 fLy..
yep. i hugged him agen wyL he was bc signing his pics 2 b given away 2 his oder frends..

its hard 2 see some1 go..but i think its harder 2 go..and Leave evrybody..awch!

he txted me at 7 am saying, "tnx pao! tnx sa Lht! ingat parati ha! dnt mind wat oders say unto u. pray kna lng Lagi!"
awch..

anoder txt, 5:30 pm: "eLow poh. d2 nko airport. 6 chek in n kmi. mamimis kta."

dat cud so heart wrenching msg 2 ol of us dat he'l Leave..weL i hope God wiL guide u always kuya..

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june 28, 2006

Nsaan ka?! badtrip! @#!%^

i cud b so late dis morning bcoz of d traffic jam! speaking of trafik, naaalala ko ung asyn nmin sa engLish.
sa tngin mu kya, anu mgnda sa urdaneta> hai..im so Liar sa mga cnulat q sa asyn ah!

weL, i got a so-so score regarding dat asyn, 8 out of 10..its ok. prblema nung akn eh, d q cnulat sa pragraph 4m..
Mam Des announced dat der wiL b a seminar workshp 2morow! i was called 2 join it. nice event 2 kiL tym! haha. =p
mgnda un pag may iniiwasan ka <iniiwasan? lets tok bout it later>
den dis workshop cud b my savior! haha. =p
but smetyms im so bored bout dis stuffs..kc nman ilang yrs nko ksali noh..but dats ok..
experience counts, db?

speaking of iniiwasan, il nver let u tink bout its literal meaning ha..it doesnt mean im avoiding smething.
weL, itong adv chem ulit nmin. nhihirapan ako. tas d p nya pnancin ung plant na pinass ko. tas mmya sbhin nya ala ako
pinass.

at ska may ixu ulit. d q lam kng cnu pnpatamaan nya, dhl may possibility n ako or c shelay kc sbi nya, ngtnong daw sa faculty rum dhl ala xa khpon.
ganito daw ang tnong, "asan c tita?"..<tita kc ang 1st name ni mam>..peo sbay p nga kmi ni shelay n ngtanong sa anak ni mam kng san xa.
peo ndi sa gnung porma ang pgttnong nmin, gnito ung amin eh: "Asan c mam dumadag?"..oh d b ang layo dun sa acusaxon nya?.maaus kming ngtnong.

it doesnt mean im guilty. aLam m nman na ang mga tao ngaun. more on sa misinterpretaxons n ang perceptions ng mga tao ngaun.
sa dhilang un, dun nging tsismoso ang mga pinoy. eh mlay mo, may ngtnong na isa sa amin ni shelay ng "asan c mam tita?"..
eh kng ang interpretaxon nya b nman ng nakarinig eh, "asan c tita?" at d nrinig ang word na "mam" 4 instance eh d no choice, akusado kmi.
kng anu2 n kc ang lmilipad sa utak ng mga tao ngaun. maxado ng mpaghinala.
d m aakalain n pti pla ung pinakawalang paki sa mundo na kaklase m eh naghinala na rin sau..Dats lyf nga naman oh!

one thing mor, dpat n daw umamin kng cnu man ngsbi nun til FRIDAY. or else, watch out nlng dun.
eh sa ndi ako, y shud i go and ask her bout it?.. but im worid. worried ako dhil sa Principle kong Misinterpretaxon.
at kung ako un, im xur sa card day iL get a grade of line of 7..sbi nya kc, watch out kng cnu man un..hay. ;'(

shud i suffer dis consequences agen?! dejavu!

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June 30, 2006

What's Eating u, pao?!

Yesterday was Kim's bday.. ndi man lng nanlibre! haha.

but im stiL suffering d same prbLems.. but i hope someone cud stil tolerate wat im writing here!
i hate hving dis dilemma. argh! wat an awful feeLing db?

Khpon pa ang seminar-workshop nmin sa journaLism. evrything seems 2 b okay nmn expct 2 d fact n lagi akong inaantok.
can u imagine urself yawning infront of d teacher?..hehe! =p

cant bLiv it, ntalo kming seniors pgdating sa sulatan ah! haha! wats eating me na nga ba? humihina na ang power of creativity of
words ku ata?

Wat's eating me n nman b? imagine ha, 11;30 nglaro kmi ng patintero infront of LRc. tsk. C ferdz kc, pauso ng kng anu2 rules.
Un, karma worx in 24 hrs nga nman. brutal xang inambush este tinaya in John ray aka Aldred (in fact, kmukha tlga nya c aldred of PBB).
his pocket wid logo in his polo was being brutally tore by john ray! wahaha! wattaLaughOff!

i got our clas pics in my hands ryt now..ol i can utter is...NAKAKATAWA.

iL show nxt tym how it looked like! may pugot (si bonni un) sa wacky pic nmin! hay can i send it as an entry in SFOGS?
juz kidding...

i read kuya joshie's blog dis afternun. wohho. cnt bliv it, he's using blog narin ah kht mejo mdamot xa mglgay ng entries.
Peo aus un ah..tamad kc un dati..juk lng ulit! peace! =p

2day, il can only ask myslef nlng wid, "WhAt's EaTing You, PaO?"

after my bLog Leave..to present a new leaf

after deLeting my previous bLog here..here i am agen 2 present a more mature ME.

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